motivation

where the fuck does it come from? how can people stay at school for like 10 hours a day just studying. to me that shit is real gay. i could never sit down for hours at a time engulfed in books. nah fuck that, i'd rather go home and play sf4. BTW i finally got an arcade stick and i'vve been trying to level up lately which is an excuse for not blogging lately. anyways, how can i strive to do better in school if i have no motivation. how can i get motivated if there isn't anything at the end of my tunnel. i can't see that far, or maybe i haven't seen what i really want yet. oh well, i wish school was like video games then i really would concentrate on them. someone show me the way....